You Can’t Be True to Yourself without Someone Getting Disappointed
Originally, I was going to title this post, “You Can’t Be True to Yourself without Disappointing Someone.” Then I thought about something that I tell people when they worry that making a tough personal choice will hurt or disappoint someone: “You are not disappointing that person, their expectations of you are disappointing them.” This is an important distinction. Our personal choices are ones that we make in order to be true to ourselves. There will always be somebody who has an expectation of what those choices should be. There is no way to cater to everyone’s idea of who we should be and what we should do. Sometimes, we have to make choices that don’t live up to those expectations.
Perhaps you have been dating someone for a while. That person has decided that you are “The One,” but you have never really been sure that this relationship is one you want to commit that deeply to. There may be real problems in the relationship that your lover is ignoring, due to this overriding illusion that you are theirs for life, the answer to their problems. You can see just how much pain this person will be in when you break up with them, so it is very difficult to do so. Still, you have a deep and insistent feeling that staying would be harmful to you in the long run.
You might think that you are about to make a choice that will damage this person somehow. In reality, your lover’s expectation of you as “The One” is the weapon that is already causing the pain for both of you. If it isn’t based on the truth, then catering to it will only cause more damage. In the short run, it will be difficult to speak your truth. In the long run, that same truth will set you free from trying to fit into something false. The truth will also set your lover free from clinging to something that isn’t really there.
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Funny how it seems like just women. I think there is an insecurity issue with my girlfriend of 4 years. Control maybe. Usually two weeks. Absence is always cure. Shouldnt be this way. Is what it is. Don’t want to move on. I love her so much. It hurts. Great site thank you.
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i want to break up with a person that i really love and the thought of it breaks my heart.. we have been together for 4 years and the last 2 have been pure hell for me. he treats me with no respect , i try to communicate how i feel and what i need to feel safe and wanted in our relationship. but it seem to get me no where. i know he loves me but over the last 2 years he has changed and the changes are not good, we have purchased a home together , but we live in different part of california. we use to come home a lot and want me to visit him. he no long comes home and wants me to visit , when we do spend time together we seem to be argue alot.. he has done some ever hurtful thing over the past 2 years. when try to speak to him about them he just wants to act like it didnt happpen.. i can no longer take his bad behavior and want to end the relatinship, i have try several time to end it and he tells me he loves and know it can work we just need to give it time. well this has been happening for about a year now, i need to get out before he totally destoy my heart.. i want so much for this to work in my heart but my mind tells me that it will never change, he will never change. I just want to be loved and wanted and treated with respect .. i dont know how to end it and keep to it with out being talked back into it because i still love this person.. please help me find peace for my broken heart