“I Want to Break Up with My Partner, but I Don’t Want to Hurt Them.”

When I was younger, I chose some pretty awful boyfriends, so breaking up with them was a no-brainer.  I felt justified because they clearly didn’t care about me anyway, or they had done some terrible thing, or they did the dirty work of breaking up with me.  I really preferred to be the heartbroken one with the moral high ground.  This is a pretty common pattern for a person who sees themselves as committed, but is actually quite scared of commitment: choose people who obviously can’t commit (addicts, philanderers, what have you), and then blame them when things don’t work out.

This strategy worked well until one day I found myself wanting to break up with someone who really didn’t want to let go.  He hadn’t done anything unusually horrible,  yet the relationship was never going to go anywhere.  I finally realized that it wouldn’t end unless I ended it, and the concept of doing so scared me.  I remember saying as I broke up with him, “Trust me, later you will realize that this was really good for you.”  Of course he did not agree with me whatsoever, nor did he congratulate me for breaking his heart, much to my dismay.  I had really wanted him to validate my choice.

There is no easy way to break up with someone when you know that they want to stay with you.  Your choice will hurt that person, and there is no way to prevent that pain.  The relationship is over, and nothing you do is going to change that truth.  You might “stay,” but you aren’t actually there.  It takes courage to be the one to officially end it;  while it may be better for both of you in the long run, that truth is painful in the here and now.  It may be difficult to accept the idea that your soon to be ex-partner will now be harboring negative feelings about you.  Those negative feelings are inevitable.  You are allowed to leave, and your partner is allowed to feel hurt, disappointed, sad, and even angry about it.

The end of the relationship gives both parties the opportunity for deeply meaningful growth.   Whether your partner takes advantage of this opportunity or decides to remain stuck in resentment is none of your business now.  You cannot control or manage anyone’s opinion of you.  You are free to move on and grow beyond this relationship.

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